06/15/22

Dear O and C, 

Today is the last day of school!  Congratulations, you made it through another year.  One of the bright spots of my year was checking in with your teachers.  I checked in with them every couple of months to see how you were doing.  Talking to your teachers was the only way I was able to know how you were doing.  I was so grateful for them.  They sent me your report cards and gave me updates on your progress in school.  I’m proud to say that every report I got was a good one.  Your report cards were good, too.  That made me very proud.  I was also told that you had good peer relationships and that you got along well with your classmates.  It wasn’t much, but it gave me a glimmer of hope and a little bit of insight into your lives.  I was also able to see a couple of pictures of you from field trips you had gone on.  It was nice to see your faces; albeit only in a picture. But at least I knew you were both alive.  

R and I are engaged to be married.  We got engaged last summer on R’s birthday.  I asked her to marry me at Sam’s Chowder House in Half Moon Bay.  She said yes, and the whole restaurant gave us a standing ovation.  It was pretty cool.  Everything in my life has been so bittersweet.  I was having these huge milestones, but I wasn’t able to fully enjoy them, because you guys were missing from my life.  Everything I did, every milestone, every success, felt a little empty because I couldn’t share it with you.  R and I are getting married in October 2022.  I wanted so badly to send you guys an invitation, but I couldn’t. I was told by your moms’ lawyer not to send you any mail. The last time I did, your mother claimed I was harassing you and “love bombing” you. 

I remember when you were absolutely thrilled at the idea of having “two moms.”  You told one of my coworkers you were going to have two moms, and how excited you both were.  You guys loved R so much, and she loved you.  She still does.  She cares about you boys so much and was devastated when she could no longer see you guys.  I’m not sure if you remember, but R always read Diary of a Wimpy Kid to you guys before bed.  She helped you brush your teeth before bed, often having 2-minute-long dance parties during those teeth brushing sessions to make them go faster.  She baked cookies with you guys.  She taught you how to cook and let you guys help her in the kitchen.  She bought you clothes and shoes to have at our apartment.  She also ensured you always had fun things to do at our apartment such as coloring books, puzzles, and board games. She played Uno with you countless times. She wrestled with you guys.  Both of you would team up on her, and pin her to the ground, and she literally could not get up.  We watched movies together and you guys would snuggle up to R on the couch.  I was so happy that you guys loved R, and that she loved you.  It was so important for me that you guys have a good relationship with her.  I never had that with my dads’ wives, and it was always uncomfortable and frustrating.  I never wanted that for you.  To be honest, if you guys didn’t get along, I don’t think I would have continued my relationship with R.  The truth is, you guys loved R from the very start, and she loved you too.  


Love,

Dad

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