05/24/22

Dear O and C,

    Happy birthday to my dearest C.  I miss you so much, buddy.  I love you more than all the stars in the sky.  It pains me deeply to know that I have to spend another one of your birthdays, without you.  I sent you a birthday card last year, but I doubt you got it.  Grandma sent a card as well.  J and M sent you something too, but again, I doubt you got it.  This year, we were all at such a loss on how to celebrate you.  We knew nothing we sent to you would reach you.  Maybe your mother saved it for you, probably not.  Matter of fact, last year, when I sent you a gift and a card, your mother wrote it up in a court document as “love bombing.”  I had never heard of that term before, and after I looked it up, I realized that it did not apply in any way to me sending you a birthday gift.  I’ll tell you a funny story.  Last year, I sent you a giant stuffed panda bear, because I know how much you loved panda bears.  I figure, if you couldn’t hug your dad, at least you could hug your giant panda bear, and maybe, if you didn’t hate me too much, you could pretend that you were hugging me.  Anyway, about a month after I sent you the panda, and reading the “love bombing” court documents, I figured that you never got the bear.  One day, I was driving home from work, and I saw a giant panda bear, just like the one I bought you, under the freeway, on the side of the road.  I laughed and I cried, and I thought to myself, that had to be the bear I bought for you.  Maybe your mom threw it straight in the trash, or left it out front of the house with a free sign.  Maybe you didn’t want it, and asked your mom to throw it out.  Maybe, it wasn’t even the same bear, but it sure did seem like quite a coincidence.  I mean, how many giant pandas are just roaming the streets of our city?  

    This year, I knew better.  I bought you a birthday card, and a gift, and left it in your bedroom.  If you ever come to my house again, and want to open it, you’re more than welcome.  If not, I totally understand.  The last time I got to see you on your birthday, was when R threw a party for you at the park.  Uncle B, Auntie L, J, M, grandma, R, O, and myself were all there.  R made you a homemade sloth chocolate cake, because a sloth was your favorite animal.  We ate yummy food, played at the park, laughed, and had such a wonderful time.  That was two years ago.  I sure do miss seeing you on your birthday, but I have a million wonderful memories of all of your previous birthdays.  On this day, I hope all of your dreams come true.  I hope you got to have a party.  I hope you got to eat yummy food, and celebrate with your friends and family.  I hope you got some really cool birthday gifts.  I love you so much, and I want nothing but the best for you, today, and for the rest of your life.  C, I am always here for you.  O, I’m always here for you too, and I hope you had a nice time celebrating your brother’s birthday with him.  I hope you were able to give him a gift too.  Remember, it is always better to give than to receive.  


Love, 

Dad

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